WALLS AND WINDOWS
BORN TO BE BLUE is playing on the DVD machine. Fast forward. There's too much pain to watch it slowly. One of my actors - not one I'm in love with - not like John Dunbar - Kevin Costner. Ethan Hawk of Dead Poet's Society is playing, it seems, a famous trumpeter with a drug habit. I only fell for him because when he was young he resembled Bernard when he was young and I was in awe of him. I call him the Tin Man because of another song - The Tin Man by America. "Some times late when things are real and people share the gift of gab between themselves ..... But Oz never did give nothin' to the Tin man what the Tin man didn't already have ..... soap suds green like bubbles ... and cause never was the reason for the evening .... so please believe in me .... " Bernard calls me Darth Vadar since the twin towers fell down. He says I can't ever come back. He got stuck in Ayn Rand and I moved on to a greater Cause and Effe...